got lots of things to say actually thats why im like blogging again.
first thing:
DON'T YOU THINK MY LAOGONG IS FRIGGING HOT WITH THE NEW HAIRSTYLE?!?!
ok sry for the caps but its trueee! yeah im bac to db if you still wondering, well sort of. they're bac quite often for some korean shows which i love cus the zhu chi ren are frigging funnie and with them on the show its jus super interesting so im entertaining myself with all those vids on youtube! but i love his new hairstyle seriously (not the album though =X)
yeah thats one thing. if u, my dear reader of my blog haven't realise, i have been trying to update quite often (cus i realise quite a lot of pple actually reads my blog HAHA) and add like at least one photo to each so it'll look more interesting... see im putting an effort man!
jus like, realise alot of things today... im sort of glad i din chose to work this holidays but rather chose to do things that i want to do. though my parents try to make me feel veh bad abt it by scolding me wasting all my tims gaming and doing nothing, at least im sure i won't regret it.
i mean, everyone will like complain they regret doing this and not doing that after the holidays, for sure, i will too, but im jus glad i get to chose wad i want to do so at least i wun regret my choice, that much. haha. so pple im telling YOU to do things that u really wanted to do when u had time b4 the whole year restarts!
though im gaming and stuff, but im having fun at the least, and most importantly, im playing with my fwens! which is the whole main point of mapling, or else i wld haf quit it already. and im reading too, catching up on events like cosplays (my faves), joining events that will make my holidays more eventful HAHA, b4 nex year comes and im stuck to books rah. so stop telling me i haf no life, i probably haf MORE life than YOU who is probably everyday stuck at home, wondering what you shud do nex so as not to waste ur time stoning =D
well and i sort of got to bond with my fwens, or rather see them more clearly... like start to see what their real appearances are like and start to realise there are really all sorts. superficial ones whom you will hate, silly ones whom you jus wanna knock some sense out of them, retarded and yet fun ones whom you jus love, irritating and i-jus-want-attention ones whom you jus wanna gif them a tight slap...
it is through so many of them that u realise the really good ones, not exactly veh good natured or innocent or friendly to the max, but the ones that you will jus randomly call when you're bored, the ones you know they will always be there to hear to complain about ur other fwens, the ones whom u jus love and hate at the same time, the ones whom you can haf a huge quarrel the day b4 and yet start calling each other the nex day like nth had happened.
you jus know who those are, and you know you treasure them like shit. if you haven't found such one friend, start finding, cus they are going to the ones who will stay with u to the end, even after you graduate, after your marriage.
maybe some fwens think im not reliable at all, or im like shu yuaning from you, thats probably cus, i dun feel as comfortable ard you as b4... im already losing that passion, which makes me feel guilty to certain pple but if it means to feel uncomfortable around pple whom you are actually going to work veh close with, its really bad. and its enough to kill ur passion. i dunno, im jus certainly disappointed in certain few, like really disappointed. i wish i could explain i wish i could tell you, but i know you would not understand. you know, its sort of the wrong frequency type? like two parallel lines unable to meet at all. okay bad example.
pple start to think a lot when they haf free time, which is wad im doing now. i think so much i cannot even sleep at night! my god. then i realise im thinking too much, and i keep telling myself to clear my mind so i can sleep... the sheep counting doesn't work trust me. rah. i start to worry abt quite a few things too, its time to take control of my life, like what i want to do, what i want to study what i want to be in future. its really come to the time i haf to make the choice, and im jus afraid i make the wrong one, well everyones scared of that, but rather...
im scared that i may not be good enough for it.
